I love the way you heal me
Question 1
“And how are you today, Carissa?”
Please choose one of the answer options below:
A) “Fine, and you?”
B) “Great, thanks for asking!”
C) “My heart is breaking, I can’t sleep, and my body is on strike. I looked in the mirror today and didn’t recognize myself. I’m falling apart. Really.”
D) “I’m living in the wealthiest nation on the planet, attending a private liberal arts college, and this morning I awoke healthy enough to tell you my Jesus died for me. I’m blessed with grace upon grace.”
What if, Jesus, what if I want to be with you now? This Earth isn’t home, and in the midst of the battle I’d really rather be in heaven worshiping you. “To live is Christ, to die is gain.” Oh believe me, I understand the ‘gain’ part, I’m longing for it already, but I’m not at all living up to this “Christ” mission, not one bit, not at all, because every day I remain cognizant in this fallen world I watch myself turn from you.
But heal me from within, Lord. I’m begging you; I need this more than I need to live. I’m not wise, not loving, not right. But more importantly, I can’t pour out onto him until I’ve been filled with you, for his heart, God, his heart means everything to me.
1 year ago • Notes